:)

I dun give a shit about you and your words

9ohnine

I think my recent prescribed medications have made a turn on my mood: pissy, bitchy, irritated easily. Or maybe I'm still the same... Whatever they are, they're one hell of a (legal) drug. From reducing back pains to increasing my dirty attitude, well, what more can you say?

P.S. Excited to go sus out my university tomorrow, new year new people... wait that doesn't quite work. Once I have a face of Candice Swanepoel and a body of Sofia Vergara, then maybe finding new friends is possible. But for now, I can sit on my couch and bite my nails in anticipation.. will my hard work of Facebook stalking pay out? Will I find da 1? Nah, of course I won't be thinking about that. It's O Fest on Friday @ UTS and guess who's playing? My one and only, Sticky Fingers. That's what I'd be DEFINITELY thinking about. Luv em. Kiss em. Fuck em(????) nah.

2:39

I have a time-ticking bomb in my mind, before I feel very provoked by many's presence and their attitude. It won't be long until I crack again, and hurt someone. The first time I cracked felt soooo satisfying, and I will be glad to be at it again.

4:19

Just eleven days into 2014, and I've been slapped with the harsh reality of life. I've noticed the people who use you, the people who genuinely care about you and the people who selfishly act like they are a good friend for the reputation they despairingly want to acquire. C'mon, it's 2014... no-one's an idiot here (excuse the irony). But hey, it is not subtle to differentiate the genuine from the fake people.

In the past week, I've realised I only have 5 friends who actually matter to me, and I actually matter for them. Those who once considered me as a "close" or "best" friend has shown their true colours to me (and their true face) where they urge to bitch, two face everyone and yap about drugs or alcohol. Where is the sense of humanity? Where is the passion to discuss about future career opportunities and talk about headlining news or finance, or enjoy music and reprimand on certain restaurants or the latest movie releases? Where is it all? It's hidden under the superficial and materialistic society that I'm surrounded by, and one by one, everyone's assimilating.

4:14

Suppressing my anger, thoughts, sadness and everything that overwhelms me and my emotions is becoming potentially dangerous for me. This suppression is fuelling my aggression and unhappiness... and I'm afraid something bad might happen.

fuck you all

I don't even like any of you guys anyway