3 o'clock in the morning

It's 3 am and I have Malianne over for a sleepover but since I have a single bed, we're kinda confused on how to work this, but we'll figure it out soon..

I hate how everyone asks me why I don't want a boyfriend. Actually, I don't mind having or being in a relationship because it's nice knowing that there's someone out there for you, and that you're not """""alone""""". And I love the idea of spoiling someone because I actually like shopping for boys more than shopping for girls.. Also, I have a ride to go anywhere so no more public transport for me! (I'm serious)

But I'm not up for all the bullshit things that happen during a relationship. I'm stubborn as f and I have a bad temper which are not qualities for a relationship. So I don't know if I want a boyfriend or not, but my attitudes are slowly changing because tbh, there's this one person that I want atm.

Smother by Daughter
Noisy Sunday by Patrick Watson

xmas eve

Do you know that feeling when you yearn for someone that you just can't have? Someone who's so bad for you but at the same time, so right?

It's those silly thoughts that gets to me every time I wake up at 5 am and lay awake til 6:30. Well, every time I mean by every time I have a big night and I wake up of regrets and tiredness the next morning. I woke up this morning, with a tiny of regret (I read my texts I sent to people last night, sooooo not redhot) and laid there, thinking about my life. What happens if I changed my lifestyle? No more parties, no more fooling around, no more games. Just-plain-deadset-serious. Settling down, perhaps. I don't know because I live for impulses. I repress that "inner good girl" in me 76% of the time and crave for temptations and things which make me think "oh no, no-one would like that" which I end up doing anyway. I don't think it's that easy, but life is better that way.

XXI IX MMXII

21st of September is a very significant date. It's the last day of school forever for Year 12's and for many, it's the last day of Term 3. Luckily for me, the 21st of September is the day that I get to see The Rubens live!!!!!!!!

  My Gun by The Rubens
  Lay it Down by The Rubens

Alot of things are happening in September too...

• Rollover from Winter to Spring
• Dexter's season 7 comes out
• Parklife (if only..)
• Spring/summer clothes and the beach and me getting tan aw yeah
• Bees and wasps start to reappear again and I have to fear for my life again b/c they plant their nasty nests near my front door and idk how to get in my house but through that door
• Oh did I forget to mention the rise of the mosquitoes too
• And the flies
• And the humid and sticky classrooms w/o air-conditioners
• And the flies on us in the humid and sticky classrooms w/o air conditioners

Ergh

half-year

If you think about it, approximately, there are only 20 or so more weeks til the year ends..
in fact, there are only
20
or
so more weeks
til
Doomsday...







Nah I'm joking. I don't believe in that.

  Can't Get Better Than This (Radio Edit) by Parachute Youth
  Constant Conversations by Passion Pit
  Playing With Fire (Ft. Labrinth) by Plan B

I really wanna see Parachute Youth/Passion Pit/ Plan B at Parklife.... sucks that I look like a twelvie w/ a pubescent Chinese boy's body. I remember I was in Year 10 and someone asked me if I was in Year 8..

Winter

I'm too lazy to blog tbh. I don't think anyone reads this anymore but it's good, I can blog more openly now aye, maybe. All I have been doing lately are:

1. failing school b/c of my procrastination
2. social network stalking diz 1 person (have I become a lovesick teenage girl?)
3. downloading songs and sitting there and crying and knowing how relevant it is to my life (nah I don't cry)
4. counting down to Ed Sheeran's and Coldplay's concert dates, ah yes, I've got tickets..

My life has been pretty boring, I wish I can come up with a story that'd leave you in awe, but sadly, within my absence, nothing much has happened, but hopefully I'll properly blog more in the holidays, but it's not a promise that I can keep..

#40

It's just one of those days again where I feel like a complete failure. Maybe, just maybe, I'll be proud of myself one day.

cats and money

Wow, it's like I've disappeared off the face of the Earth. It's been a good ol' month since I've last blogged, so I send my apologies by showing you guys photos of this kitten that I found roaming around my house. It's about as big as my foot.

Soooo where do I begin with my adventures in the past month? Well, yes, I went to One Direction's concert and it's a recommendation!!! Although, at the end of the concert, your ears begin to ring and strain from the constant exposure to the high-pitched screams and the constant "I LOVE YOU ZAYN" (okay I kept saying that) or "OMG" or "MARRY ME" or some explicit things that I rather not mention... otherwise, yes, I stand by my point that it's the best concert that I've been to. AND I GOT ED SHEERAN TICKETS TODAY!!!! I CANNOT WAIT TIL AUGUST, I'VE BEEN DYING FOR THIS DAY OMG THANK YOU JENNIFER PHO, YOU ARE THE BEST!!! All day, I was refreshing Twitter and reading people's excitement/devastation about the tickets and I couldn't contact Jennifer so basically, my emotions were unstable and I was in a literal mess. Well that's another $80 gone and One Direction's arena tour's pre-sale came out on Tuesday so that adds an extra $100 to the pile, wow. And I need at least another $100 to get my nape piercing re-done. I've been putting off this day because I've been using the money on food. I need to get to 50 kg but nothing has worked for me. My dad got me what-is-supposedley to be "fat pills" but I reckon it's another whole Asian voodoo bullshit.

relevant/10

"When you're young everything feels like the end of the world. But it's not; it's just the beginning"

beach + art = party

So here are some photos of when my mum was in Fiji, New Caledonia and Vanuatu and here I am, trying to make up some lame post to compensate for my absence.

So here's a quick recap of my life so far:

• My "people-I-hate" list had reduced to 2
• I changed my Facebook display picture
• I got licked on the nose by a dog
• I found out that the "Bananas in Pyjamas" characters were being played by women
• I've been at school
• I've been dreading for April (holidays + One Direction, the Wanted and Zac Efron are coming!!!)
• And I've been occupied by school.... pretty much. 

Running out of excuses

You know that saying that goes like "a picture is worth a thousand words", well, to make up for my unexplained absence, I went through my phone and picked out 5 photos, ya, it's better than nothing. Plus, my mum's taking my camera on her cruise to and around fuh-reaking Fiji, Vanuatu and New Caledonia for two weeks. So who knows the next time I will blog again.

Here I am today, in my Dotti Top and Stussy shorts. (I coincidently had the same colour scheme as my dad, awk) It was good to have nice weather again after a shitty week of rain or clouds or flooding or, cloudy rains causing floodingHere is a Lemon Lime & Bitters drink from Outback Jack. My family awkwardly sat for 30 mins for our food to arrive. I didn't like my chicken schitznel because it had no flavour but the rump my dad ordered was better. But I loved the chips, I ate half of my mum's and my dad's and my own. But the BBQ sauce tasted like paper.... but I continued eating everything despite the shitty taste because I was starving.

Here's something that I found on the first level of the Eiffel Tower! Pretty cool aye? There was a wall where it had the word "AUS" written in the centre of everything as well. I reckon I took a pretty good photo as I was freaking out and couldn't breathe after climbing 57 metres up in the air. But I think I overcame my fear of heights after that experience. I remember taking a video and I sounded like asif I was crying. Ah well.Above is a picture of a Starbucks cup labelled with "Caroline". That was the day that I went to the City (supposedly to the Glebe markets but it rained), and Starbucks was having a half price sale! Christine ordered my drink and she took down her name as Caroline. Jennifer ordered Malinna's and her own and took down the name as 'Ursula'. And on the bottom, that's a picture of my favourite cereal (Plus Essentials For Women, ahmagaaahhhddd uh-mazing!) Yeah, I managed to open it wrong.

FutureSex/LoveSounds

Being an anti-social person, I try dodging the whole "what-do-you-want-to-be-when-you-grow-up" talk. But when I'm caught in the spotlight, I usually reply with "uuhh, I don't know. I keep changing my mind" and bring up my whole shitty life story how I went through phases of different career choices. It really terrifies me though. I don't have a set future. The only thing that I've looked at in the future are the names of my children. (I shotgun Ethan, Lachlan, Ashley and Lily) Although, I can shamefully admit that there was one time in my life where I had considered of becoming successful by being in a reality TV show... yano, like Laguna Beach or something.

Anyway, have a lovely Chinese New Year!

Typo at Market City was having a sale and I got this travel coffee mug and calendar for $6 in total. The calendar was $1 and it's such a pretty little thing. There was another calendar as well, but it was full of shots of naked women. I'd rather... not.

And some jewellery I found lying around when cleaning and renovating ma room. 

And I believe this is one of the best chicken burgers I have ever tasted. I bought it at this Bondi store, near the changerooms!

Happy birthday Zayn Malik

Currently finding a job, setting up my paypal, cruising through online shops, renovating my room, writing my resume, you name it. I'll be in touch with you soon, just for now, I need to get hold on reality.

And most importantly, happy birthday bradfordboizayn, it's been 19 years of table breaking. ♥♥♥♥♥