3 o'clock in the morning

It's 3 am and I have Malianne over for a sleepover but since I have a single bed, we're kinda confused on how to work this, but we'll figure it out soon..

I hate how everyone asks me why I don't want a boyfriend. Actually, I don't mind having or being in a relationship because it's nice knowing that there's someone out there for you, and that you're not """""alone""""". And I love the idea of spoiling someone because I actually like shopping for boys more than shopping for girls.. Also, I have a ride to go anywhere so no more public transport for me! (I'm serious)

But I'm not up for all the bullshit things that happen during a relationship. I'm stubborn as f and I have a bad temper which are not qualities for a relationship. So I don't know if I want a boyfriend or not, but my attitudes are slowly changing because tbh, there's this one person that I want atm.

Smother by Daughter
Noisy Sunday by Patrick Watson

xmas eve

Do you know that feeling when you yearn for someone that you just can't have? Someone who's so bad for you but at the same time, so right?

It's those silly thoughts that gets to me every time I wake up at 5 am and lay awake til 6:30. Well, every time I mean by every time I have a big night and I wake up of regrets and tiredness the next morning. I woke up this morning, with a tiny of regret (I read my texts I sent to people last night, sooooo not redhot) and laid there, thinking about my life. What happens if I changed my lifestyle? No more parties, no more fooling around, no more games. Just-plain-deadset-serious. Settling down, perhaps. I don't know because I live for impulses. I repress that "inner good girl" in me 76% of the time and crave for temptations and things which make me think "oh no, no-one would like that" which I end up doing anyway. I don't think it's that easy, but life is better that way.