11:44

Grrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hate you so so so so much. The fact I even do things for you and you treat me like a little minded person, I don't have time for you to be called as my sister anymore. You always leave me feel degraded.

/////1

Nights like these you think about your relevance in life.

1034

Hm, how to deal w/ it

5:16

I miss you, so so so terribly. I just wanted to talk to you last night. But I suppose it was best for everyone to prohibit me from doing so.

Did the devil let you down?

It's one of those sleepless nights where you replay this one song which incites all these emotional thoughts... the same usual stuff you think about before you sleep or when you have a shower. You re-evaluate to who deserves to be in your life, who some truly are deep down and what you're doing with your life.. you just think.

1i4r5

LOL WHO THE FUCK CAN YOU TRUST NOWADAYS

338

I don't need anyone in this world. I'm doing it all for myself.

Terrigal

I'm very content that hardly anyone visits this blog, so I feel like I can be a bit more open about myself. But that'd probably not happen, I mean, I am afterall a Scorpio. Scorpios bottle our mysteries up and hide them from the reality of the world.

This past week, I've been celebrating my post HSC with my closest and with my (not so)favourite people at an amazing beachhouse at Terrigal. One word to sum it all? Dramatic. Fun dramatic but nevertheless, horrific. I've figured myself out throughout the week, and was able to see the true colours of so many of my "friends". I revealed my true feelings to some people... but to only being crushed down and broken by the last minutes of the holiday. It ain't easy pouring your eyes out and knowing the person who you love and care so much had brought you down. It ain't easy knowing you're not worth at least two cents to them. It isn't..

67%

lol why do i still feel this way

835

Is it normal that I've stopped caring about people? Sure, people may sulk about their problems to me but do I genuinely really care? Is it just manners for me to reply to them?

I think everytime I actually try to care for someone, they get mad at me. Which I think is pathetic, and a waste of my time. But really, when someone tries to get me jealous, I don't care. U n l e s s I have more-than-mutual feelings for the person, but in general... no. Like how some girls make it obvious that they're in relationships with boys that I'm basically-like-family with. They rub it in my face. Good for you, you're happy together. I have my life to worry about. Ya get me? Anyway, that needed to get off my chest. Back 2 da HSC.

635 lololololodl2o200er

Lol how can someone just get up and leave w/o saying anything? At least be polite and be like "HEY I'M LEAVING YOUR LIFE FOREVER NOW GOODBYE" or at least say something. Stop being a coward.

#436

stop coming back into my life
it's
not
easy
you
fuck

when songs dictate your mind

You’re the universe to me
You’re the air in my lungs
You’re the fields where I run
You’re the sky where I’m floating

It’s you, you, you

#942

I really ceebs with you. You are right, you're too selfish. I'm selfish. And two don't clash.

1141

I can't do this

*_)(_*

why am i so confusing
why can't i get my feelings straight
why do i do this to myself
why

#ffffff

Fuck all of this. Fuck "loyal friends" because at the end of the day, NO-ONE's loyal. Maybe two or three but that's all you really need. You need to stop depending on people because one day they will leave you, they will hurt you or they will backstab you. You need to start depending upon on yourself to make yourself happy. When we were born, we didn't sign a contract to say that we have to make others happy, we were born to survive.

And fuck that saying "please don't forget that there are people out there who really matter and who really care" because the last time someone told me that they really cared left me. It's either a big fucking coincidence, or this is just how life is.

1228FUCKLIFE0104

Deleted every photo, deleted you off my phone, threw away your chocolates, gave back your clothes.... but I'm too scared to throw out your Valentine's Day card... lulz, it's a damn fucking stupid card and I'm too resistant of getting rid of it?! Lulz0z0w00398hufnskskak ><

It's been a while and I can't let this feeling pass.. We didn't even last that long yet I'm so attached?? Haha, how does this even work...

Near to You by A Fine Frenzy

relevant

1040 I HATE PEOPLE

Okay....... let's approach this as adults as we are technically 18 this year....

WHY
THE
FUCK
ARE
YOU
SO
IMMATURE?

You're doing a good job of making me move on, but instead of wanting to be friends, I'm just hating you even more every-f-u-c-k-i-n-g-second.

939

You're right, I will NEVER get it.

12:52

How the fuck is it affecting me more than you? How are you coping? How-are-you-doing-it???? When did I get so emotional and sensitive? Where is the old-cynical self who disregarded "love" and feelings? All these dumb fucking questions I ask myself everyday..

You really changed me. I got fucked over before and so I began to "mess around", but when I met you, I just changed my ways. I settled down and wanted to get serious. But now you're gone, what the fuck am I meant to do?

Let Her Go by Passenger

933

Remember how you said "I'm scared if I fall for you and you leave me for someone else"? Yeah, everything's in reverse now.

1026

Blunt replies, boring conversations, HM. You wonder why I'm always with other "boys"?

1109

if you're not gonna put in any effort, then why should i?

7:13

I gotta stop expecting too much from you.


Changes (Shlohmo remix) LOL Boys

unappreciative c(_)nt

What makes me angry is that I did absolutely nothing wrong to you, yet you're acting like a little cunt towards me, making indirect tweets and probably "bitching" about me. Maybe, yes, we've stopped talking but it doesn't mean you have to be a bitch about it. Just remember, I know half the shit you've told me and said about the people that you now consider as your "closest friends". Remember I was the friend who invited you to parties, took you out and hung with you. Remember that when you had no-one, I was there for you. Remember how you fucked up my friendship with Hanh? Hahaha, and all after that, I still forgave you and trusted you. I wonder what stuff you knew about me that you told to others and that "close friend" you hated so much once.

candles in the sun

ARGH
SO
SMITTEN FOR YOU
ARGH
A
R
G
H

1013

And just when I thought things were gonna get better..

#114

Jokes........... probably jinxed my prev post

130113

I
LOVE
MY
LIFE AT THE MOMENT

Happening by Chiddy Bang

I NEED TO GAIN WEIGHT

I want those people in my life who would do anything for me. E.g. when I say "I am hungry for McDonalds", and then nek minnit, there is Maccas on my doorstep. Because currently, I.am.craving.for.nachos.and.tacos, I've tried to hint to everybody but people were like "ain't got no time for that, it's 1 in the morning". Well, fuck you too.

P.S. I've got Two Door Cinema Club tomorrow night, so pumped!!!!! + excited to see the Vaccines and The Jungle Giants. It'll be a good night..

What You Know by Two Door Cinema Club

hny

Who could ask for a better ending of 2012??? Last night was a heck of a night and I spent it with the best people ever.. hope 2013 will be a killer year: Big Day Out, Future Music Festival, perhaps Parklife and Stereosonic! But again, I graduate this year... and complete my HSC, o h w e l l, here's a playlist of music that pumped me up last night!!

Pressure (Alesso remix) by Nadia Ali, Starkillers & Alex Kenji
The Night Out (A-Trak Remix) by Martin Solveig
Ludacris "Rest Of My Life" feat. Usher & David Guetta by Ludacris
HyperParadise (Flume Remix) by Hermitude
Some Nights (Jakob Liedholm Arena Mix) by Fun.